ABOUT ME

More than two decades ago, I faced that emptiness and feelings of sadness so profoundly that it felt like an abyss. I tried to fill it in with anything I could, but the void was bottomless. It's like I was feeding a giant, insatiable monster.

Growing up, I was told that when I had problems, I needed to pray to God, and for God to listen to my prayers, I needed to be a good girl. At that time, I thought being a good girl meant pleasing other people and seeking their validation. Therefore, I must please others so God will be pleased with me and will answer my prayers.

However, that belief led me to emotional exhaustion, and I became even more unhappy and stressed out. Despite my attempts to fill the void through friendships, church involvement, and various activities, nothing alleviated my inner turmoil. I concealed my true feelings from my friends, projecting a facade of being "okay." I prayed fervently for relief from the loneliness and deep sorrow that weighed me down.
 

Many nights, I had nightmares that monsters, ghosts, and other creatures of the dark were trying to get me. I tried running away quickly so they wouldn't catch me. I woke up from these dreams panting, trembling and shaking, sweating; my heart was palpitating so fast that I could hardly breathe.
One day, overwhelmed by despair, I attempted my life. Thank God because seeing the cross of Jesus and loud knocks on the door snapped me out of it.

I continue to pray to God to take me out of the dark night of my soul. Then, one day, I met a nun who shared with me the concepts of self-awareness, self-knowledge, self-love, and journeying into one's inner self. I was so fascinated by these concepts that I joined their congregation. There, I uncovered the keys to my recovery—the transformative impact of connecting with my inner self and God.

In the process, I learned that those feelings and emotions I felt had messages for me. For years, I ignored them because I couldn't accept them. Until one day, I decided to courageously face them and confront them about what they wanted from me. When I began to understand their CORE MESSAGE for me, the journey to my healing process began. This journey allowed me to rediscover my true self and embrace my worth. I found my inner peace and joy. I also experienced so much love from within.

Remember those monsters, ghosts, and creatures of the dark in my nightmare? When I learned the core message of my struggle and began my healing process, they reappeared in my dream. However, at this time, I was not running away.

In my dream, I was at the cemetery. It was dark and quiet, and the air felt cold and damp. Then, the gate of the graveyard suddenly opened. A witch with a black dress and a pointy nose, covered with big skin tags on her face that looked like boils, met me by the gate; then other monsters and scary creatures came. However, at this time, I was not afraid of them. I asked each of them their names and told them I wanted them to be my friends. They smiled at me, took me to the inner part of a cemetery, and took me to a grave. They unearthed it. They opened a coffin, and I saw a decomposed body. The witch said it was me.

 

I watched my decomposed body with full compassion. That body was a part of me that I buried deep down because I didn't want to face it. The part of me that wanted to be acknowledged and integrated into my life. It was Inday Doris (my nickname as a child) who was sexually molested. In that dream, I asked for forgiveness for running away from it, and I forgave myself and those involved. I woke feeling so at peace and felt complete and whole again.

All along, the feelings of emptiness, guilt, and shame that I felt had a message for me to integrate. Until I acknowledged and accepted the message, I was unable to start finding the appropriate help that led me to my healing process. It's crucial to acknowledge and accept these messages, as they are the first step towards finding the help you need to heal.

I have met countless individuals who battled stress and grappled with physical and mental fatigue and emotional depletion. They try different approaches to overcome those unpleasant feelings and stress. However, unless you are willing to face their core messages, they will continue to bother and hunt you in different ways through different forms of triggers.

This inspires me to help those who want to uncover the hidden core message of their stress and other unpleasant feelings.

Whether by speaking at your event, serving as your coach, enrolling in our courses, or reading our books, you will experience profound relief and reassurance as you embark on your journey toward healing.

 

Our coaching programs and classes are designed to unearth the root causes of stress, their hidden messages, nurture self-love, and encourage you to deepen your relationship with the divine in you and your God.

 

By integrating spiritual principles from my time as a nun, modern coaching techniques, Wellness 360 Health Philosophy, and Neuro Linguistic Programming, our programs provide a progressive roadmap toward sustained solutions for stress and a deeper sense of self-compassion and feeling complete again.